Dead Letters Spell Out Dead Words - Lost In Reflections

Gothenburg based composer and sound artist Thomas Ekelund has delved into a time-consuming investigation of the complex, multi-faceted world of solitude and introspective darkness. His pallet is strictly greyscale, but the tones he uses are deeper, more honest and more heartfelt than anything else out there. »Lost in Re¬ections« is Dead Letters Spell Out Dead Words’ fourth main album and his de nite masterpiece so far. Here, hurt is transformed into absolute beauty. And here, dampened drones make pop art. This, in the words of Thomas Ekelund himself, is how the album came about: Eighteen months ago I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, a both vile and many-faced disease that inevitably drapes every aspect of life in shadows that range from shades of grey to coal black. It causes a polarity of mind, everything is either or, never in between. It makes you feel isolated and alone even in the most crowded rooms. Slowly this imagined isolation becomes a real isolation. You do not allow anyone inside the carefully constructed walls, built stone by stone by a mind so completely preoccupied with guilt and shame that you in fact become unhuman (sic). An empty shell containing oozing, black bile and nothing else. You become the disease. I never look into mirrors unless it's absolutely necessary. Because I don't see the re¬ection of man, I see a specter, a phantasm, a distorted human-like  gure to which I can't relate. I never look into the eyes of anyone I talk to because I am terri ed that they will see the same apparition. I try to achieve invisibility, but in lack of that I hide my true appearance behind meticulously molded masks. Eighteen months ago, »Lost in Re¬ections« was already half a year old. Still it deals with the above mentioned disease and some of the aspects of it. Its strange how the mind can be so aware and unaware at the same time. Now it's two years later. And though I in some ways have a better grasp of my ailment I am nowhere near being rid of it. Most of the time I feel suspended, as if I was waiting for some great revelation of thruth, a stroke of magic that will transform me into someone like you.. Tracklist: A This Room Seems Empty Without You 5’ 55”, B Lost & Losing 6‘ 58”, C1 What I Wouldn’t Give To Feel Alive 6‘ 34”, C2 Crowded Rooms, In Empty 7’ 17”, C3 What Stays And What Fades Away 6‘ 43”, D Himmelschreibenden Herzen 18’ 55”.

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